Thursday, March 28, 2013

I want very much for him to be loved, because he is a lovely person and deserves it, and because I want the burden of loving him taken from me. Loving the loveless and unlovable is my gift and my curse. I found one who was sad and unloved, so I loved him, but now there is another one sad and unloved and I am helpless. I could leave the first, and let the second be loved. But then the first would be unloved again, and even more wretched than before. There is no scenario here that does not end with someone being depressed and lonely. I want to fix it. I cannot. I want to love both. I cannot do that either.
Someone find him, and love him, and hold him and kiss him goodnight so that I no longer feel compelled to.

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